movies

You're drinking when you want to escape from the world around you.
I'm a nerd.
In place of drinking I AM watching movies.
Time when I can forget who and where I am makes me feel better.

I can't stop thinking; sometimes it's so hard to fall asleep.
My body is tired, but mind keeps goin'

It's better to stay quiet

Everyday conversation:
A:"Hey! How are you?"
B:"Hi!! Good! And you?"
A:"Pretty good!"
B:"That's good!"

I just don't want to fit in American world. That is not for me.
I'm proud about the place where I come from.

Sometimes when I'm looking into pictures when I was back home, it feels like the girl I see in the pictures is not me - she's happy, beautiful, satisfied with life, always smiling... But know - tired, exhaused, with fake smile...

But there is left just a little bit.
AND I'M FREE! I can manage my own time know. I can decide what to or not. It feels so good!
And Spring is coming, that it what I need.

I won't stand that kind of life for 4 years, so I have understood that it's the right decision to leave this place forever and ever.

I'm afraid that I am taking the easiest way by returning home - I'm giving up. Am I?

There are no days when I don't think about being home.

Your feelings are result of your choice. Every day there is a choice, if it is going to be a good or a bad day, and you're the only one who are making the choice for yourself.

You are the master of your life and destiny!

Spring

I love this spring time!
I'm calmed down because I know - I will be home soon!
This hard year reality made me understand that world presents big diversity of people. Everybody is different. I can't dispraise those who are not like me. I have agreed to situation around me; it made my life easier. I know, this all is just temporary.
I'm earning experiences...
Day counting doesn't help! Now I just let the time to go... And it's going faster :)

Quote of the day - Why sun is shining, if they never eat their plate completely clean? :)